Changing times...

Its indeed been long since I last wrote...much around has changed.
The reason I started with this blog was I thought I will speak out evry little thing that lingered on my mind...bt the journey hasn't been much as I wanted it too !! But then..when have things gone the way one wants???
Today is a new day...& the desire to write was just too strong to put aside...
Talking about changes...I am academically an year older,passed out with flying colours,actually topped my college...hadnt expected this.. to be frank !!! maybe that's my biggest strength & weakness too !! People at college think I do this very easily...like I have a magical wand.. n all my wishes come true !!Only few know that I slog my ass out !!Also being the topper,I tend to get more attention more profs..scrutinizing my every move !! Don't know whether its good or bad...but I have tasted both consequences.
Good: Teachers & other faculty respect you & take u seriously.They adore you & bless you alike.
Bad:Some people will flock around you & try to be your friends...they are in real either trying to gain faculty's attention through you or use you so that the "scholar" kid can help them with their homework & can also provide them with adequate information about nitty gritties required at college !!
I find this soo strange !!!...how can u decide whom you want to befriend on basis of marks they score or how they will benefit you.Indeed changing times..!!
We have grown up hearing stories of great friendship & I seriously doubt if the Z generation will ever even know of what "true friendship" means .
Young guys & gals become boyfriends/girlfriends so that they have someone to depend on,someone with whom they can roam about,go for movies,lunches,kiss & cuddle ...& once they are bored with that one person..they hop on to the other without a tinge of guilt..where's the love??
In my short life I have seen many successful persons who have valued relations & people around them ...& I have seen many more people who have kicked out people (who slogged for them so that they could achieve & reach where they are right now)who will no longer be of any help to them...now I stand at  crossroads where I have to decide which way I need to go...or should I choose the Midway ???

Love At Its Tender Best

The other day I was returning home from classes & saw a school bus drop 2 kids at the main gate of my building.Plenty of buses pick & drop kids from & at my gate. At my time of the day,a lot of school buses drop primary kids & parents wait to receive their wards.Its a nice feeling to see them run in excitement towards parents & discuss all that was done in school that day (they dont wanna wait till they get home...but then its the innocence) neither are they bothered that other parents & on-lookers are listening to their conversations or staring at them in amusement !!!Many of them,want to play for some time in the garden before they get home !!!
Why dont we grown ups exhibit the same type of innocence & carefree attitude? (growing up never meant giving up these basic characteristics)
So,I have seen these kinda scenes many times & even you may be thinking there's nothing much to write about this.But these 2 kids I saw that day were nothing but exceptional.
One among them was an elder brother of the other (they must be hardly in 2nd & 3rd grade). Right from the time they got down from the bus,the elder one held the young's hand & carefully walked him through the path leading to the building.While doing so they had to cross a small road (mostly there's less traffic but one cant rule out the possibility of a sudden truck or zooming teenage bikers ) While crossing, the younger was almost unaware of how to look at both ends & then proceed,he was just walking as though there was nothing like a "road " with probable traffic !!!So the elder one held his hands tightly,asking him to stop,teaching him how to look at both ends & make a decision to cross or not,also explaining him if they didnt do so then the consequences can be disastrous!!...While all this was going around,I was standing at some distance from these guys & observing them (i think its my hobby to observe people & things around). I was so touched by the elder's love & care & was almost moved to moist eyes.
I realized that a siblings' love & affection is more precious than everything !!!no matter how much your boyfriend/girlfreind/husband or wife loves you they cannot beat your siblings love !!..Its the tenderness in their words,their touch & eyes that makes you listen to them & share more and more with them.
I am sure even you may have experienced this underlying love,affection & care from your siblings & surely would have felt similar to my experience !!..you may debate with sibling fights but then that's all a part of growing up & making sweet childhood memories .With Valentine day's around the corner,why dont we thank our siblings for their undemanding love & continous support !!!After all its the day of expressing love for people who love u & whom you love !!!(ask a heart broken the difference between two :p)

DRIVING CLASS UPDATES: Nothing major went wrong since the first day & I think I have acquired some basic skills...yet a far way to go !!!Not to mention,I hate traffic jams more so when I am driving !!!

Till next time,Take care Sweethearts !!!

My first driving class

Since my childhood,I have always loved traveling in cars (as we didnt have our own car till I was 8 made the whole "car" experience all the more special) whenever we traveled by car I was always fascinated by the window seat.I always wanted the "window seat" no matter whosoever is seating by it,I used to demand the seat irrespective of who the owner of the car was !!!(maybe I was born dominant) I still possess an obsession for window seats be it in public transport or friend's vehicle.I have at times fought with my siblings for a window !!
The entire experience of sitting by the window & staring into the  fast going by outside world was something that I was very fond of.I just wanted to stare into the world & feel the winds across my face,it gave me immeasurable joy !!I used to feel - I have found solace.Even today after so many years & numerous window seat rides,I experience the same joy n satisfaction each time I happen to grab a window (though I have grown mature enough not to fight for it)
Car rides were always desirable & fun filled but surprisingly I was never attracted to the driver's seat,that was one place I didnt want to be at.Don't specifically know the reason why & also cant analyze !!!As I turned an adult,all my other co-aged friends hurriedly got their licenses but I was still pretty okay with the fact that I didnt know how to drive!!(neither did I know any of car mechanics) My friends gave me rides back home in their cars & still I never felt jealous that they knew how to drive (which they did superbly) & I didnt !!My parents asked me to get myself enrolled in a driving school when I was nearing 19 but again I didnt pay much heed to it & let almost 7 months past by.Then finally,one fine day I woke up with the will & desire to learn driving.I wanted to learn it no matter how bad a driver I may become !!This change has indeed made understand that our minds need time to be ready to accept certain things & adjust our thought processes accordingly.For some these changes happen almost instantly for the most complex issues while for others the most simplest decisions cannot be taken because their mind & thoughts aren't accustomed to it !!!
At my driving theory class,my instructor asked me what "E" in the fuel indicator stood for & I said it was for ENOUGH,resulting into a hearty laugh !!!The moment he gave me the keys to the car & I set the ignition on,I felt like those hero's on silver screen zooming into the rich dad's bunglow !!I was so deep into my imagination that I failed to realize that the car just made a start up sound & then as I failed to change gears it stopped !!Determined not to sail in the boat of dreams,I tried again.This time the car started perfectly & I rode up till  some distance too only to see a huge truck coming my way.As almost instantly my confidence dwindled & I murmured below my breath -Why they allow heavy vehicles on roads except for highways !!!As if sensing my fear,my instructor advised me to calm down.We some how managed to get pass the truck with most of the work done by the instructor.Today's session was not about all negatives but some cherries too !!My instructor said I was pretty good at taking turns which most people found difficult.
I think I refrained from driving all these years because of some kinda fear in me.(maybe fear of loosing life or fear of not being able to stare at the world passing by) Today I faced a part of that fear & over comed it  to an extent !!...I am overly excited for my next class!!...watch this space for more updates !!
Till then take care sweethearts !!!

Shubh Arambh

The idea of writing a blog appeared to me pretty often in past few months but I always turned it down giving excuses to myself - I will not be able to write regularly,my friends would laugh at the thought of me writing (they say I speak too much ...let alone write a blog),I would run out of topics,etc.
Today,the urge was just insatiable !!! I tried all that I could to stop myself from creating a blog but in vain !!
Omg !!! You must be thinking,if she so strongly didnt want to blog why the hell she did it?? & Why the hell i am reading this ???
Arent you???
Well,firstly I am fond of writing & this comes from my fondness for speaking my mind on topics & reading (anythning & everything) regularly if not profusely !!! I feel blogging is the best way to share your experiences with everyone & listen to other's experiences too !!! Further more,blogs give you the option of sharing without actually concelling your identity which is indeed a great + .(I dont mind confessing: I was apprehensive about blogging coz of identity issues)
Here,at my blog,I intend to write all that inspires,saddens,rejuvenates,angers,impresses me.In short,all the random things I encounter !!!
On that note,I sign off....with the expectation that our bond grows fonder & stronger with each post !!
Take care sweethearts.