Since my childhood,I have always loved traveling in cars (as we didnt have our own car till I was 8 made the whole "car" experience all the more special) whenever we traveled by car I was always fascinated by the window seat.I always wanted the "window seat" no matter whosoever is seating by it,I used to demand the seat irrespective of who the owner of the car was !!!(maybe I was born dominant) I still possess an obsession for window seats be it in public transport or friend's vehicle.I have at times fought with my siblings for a window !!
The entire experience of sitting by the window & staring into the fast going by outside world was something that I was very fond of.I just wanted to stare into the world & feel the winds across my face,it gave me immeasurable joy !!I used to feel - I have found solace.Even today after so many years & numerous window seat rides,I experience the same joy n satisfaction each time I happen to grab a window (though I have grown mature enough not to fight for it)
Car rides were always desirable & fun filled but surprisingly I was never attracted to the driver's seat,that was one place I didnt want to be at.Don't specifically know the reason why & also cant analyze !!!As I turned an adult,all my other co-aged friends hurriedly got their licenses but I was still pretty okay with the fact that I didnt know how to drive!!(neither did I know any of car mechanics) My friends gave me rides back home in their cars & still I never felt jealous that they knew how to drive (which they did superbly) & I didnt !!My parents asked me to get myself enrolled in a driving school when I was nearing 19 but again I didnt pay much heed to it & let almost 7 months past by.Then finally,one fine day I woke up with the will & desire to learn driving.I wanted to learn it no matter how bad a driver I may become !!This change has indeed made understand that our minds need time to be ready to accept certain things & adjust our thought processes accordingly.For some these changes happen almost instantly for the most complex issues while for others the most simplest decisions cannot be taken because their mind & thoughts aren't accustomed to it !!!
At my driving theory class,my instructor asked me what "E" in the fuel indicator stood for & I said it was for ENOUGH,resulting into a hearty laugh !!!The moment he gave me the keys to the car & I set the ignition on,I felt like those hero's on silver screen zooming into the rich dad's bunglow !!I was so deep into my imagination that I failed to realize that the car just made a start up sound & then as I failed to change gears it stopped !!Determined not to sail in the boat of dreams,I tried again.This time the car started perfectly & I rode up till some distance too only to see a huge truck coming my way.As almost instantly my confidence dwindled & I murmured below my breath -Why they allow heavy vehicles on roads except for highways !!!As if sensing my fear,my instructor advised me to calm down.We some how managed to get pass the truck with most of the work done by the instructor.Today's session was not about all negatives but some cherries too !!My instructor said I was pretty good at taking turns which most people found difficult.
I think I refrained from driving all these years because of some kinda fear in me.(maybe fear of loosing life or fear of not being able to stare at the world passing by) Today I faced a part of that fear & over comed it to an extent !!...I am overly excited for my next class!!...watch this space for more updates !!
Till then take care sweethearts !!!
The entire experience of sitting by the window & staring into the fast going by outside world was something that I was very fond of.I just wanted to stare into the world & feel the winds across my face,it gave me immeasurable joy !!I used to feel - I have found solace.Even today after so many years & numerous window seat rides,I experience the same joy n satisfaction each time I happen to grab a window (though I have grown mature enough not to fight for it)
Car rides were always desirable & fun filled but surprisingly I was never attracted to the driver's seat,that was one place I didnt want to be at.Don't specifically know the reason why & also cant analyze !!!As I turned an adult,all my other co-aged friends hurriedly got their licenses but I was still pretty okay with the fact that I didnt know how to drive!!(neither did I know any of car mechanics) My friends gave me rides back home in their cars & still I never felt jealous that they knew how to drive (which they did superbly) & I didnt !!My parents asked me to get myself enrolled in a driving school when I was nearing 19 but again I didnt pay much heed to it & let almost 7 months past by.Then finally,one fine day I woke up with the will & desire to learn driving.I wanted to learn it no matter how bad a driver I may become !!This change has indeed made understand that our minds need time to be ready to accept certain things & adjust our thought processes accordingly.For some these changes happen almost instantly for the most complex issues while for others the most simplest decisions cannot be taken because their mind & thoughts aren't accustomed to it !!!
At my driving theory class,my instructor asked me what "E" in the fuel indicator stood for & I said it was for ENOUGH,resulting into a hearty laugh !!!The moment he gave me the keys to the car & I set the ignition on,I felt like those hero's on silver screen zooming into the rich dad's bunglow !!I was so deep into my imagination that I failed to realize that the car just made a start up sound & then as I failed to change gears it stopped !!Determined not to sail in the boat of dreams,I tried again.This time the car started perfectly & I rode up till some distance too only to see a huge truck coming my way.As almost instantly my confidence dwindled & I murmured below my breath -Why they allow heavy vehicles on roads except for highways !!!As if sensing my fear,my instructor advised me to calm down.We some how managed to get pass the truck with most of the work done by the instructor.Today's session was not about all negatives but some cherries too !!My instructor said I was pretty good at taking turns which most people found difficult.
I think I refrained from driving all these years because of some kinda fear in me.(maybe fear of loosing life or fear of not being able to stare at the world passing by) Today I faced a part of that fear & over comed it to an extent !!...I am overly excited for my next class!!...watch this space for more updates !!
Till then take care sweethearts !!!
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